Is it wrong for me to wish she was older than two weeks? I guess I just miss having some type of schedule/routine. Apparently two week olds don't have either...
Lilah is doing great. She weighs over 7 lbs and though she's had a couple fussy nights, she still seems to be far more mellow than Devan ever was.

Lilah has already had a few "firsts". She's been to the park, the mall, Target, Doctors office, etc. Oh yeah, and she's been to the beach twice. The first time she was only 5 days old. I know. I'm crazy. No, I would have gone crazy if I didn't get out of our apartment that first week. Am I the only one who gets baby blues? I get seriously emotional after having a baby. I HATE it. I would totally be popping Prozac or something if I wasn't nursing. Either way, I feel like I'm over the baby blues phase and now I'm just sleep deprived. And, Lilah was totally bundled up inside the sling at the beach while I sat on a bench and watched Devan and John chase seagulls so it's not like she was hanging out on a beach towel catching the swine flu or anything.

Devan LOVES her little sister. But not so fond of all the changes little sisters bring. I feel bad a lot because I know it's hard for her and I miss spending time with her. I guess things will all smooth out eventually, right? My Mom has been here and she's leaving tomorrow. I can't believe next week I'm going to be totally alone. Wish me luck...

Lilah’s Story

I remember looking at Lilah in the hospital the day after we had her and thinking “She’s only a day old and yet it seems like she’s always been with us”. And it did- for 9 months we waited for her, talked about her, included her in our prayers and had nights where our entire family had their hands on my belly feeling her move and twist inside of me. When we finally got to meet her face to face it was like seeing her again after being apart for a long time. And after nine months of not being able to decide on a name, I knew the instant I saw her. “Little Lilah” I thought. She was little, an entire two pounds smaller than her big sister and this story is about her- our little Lilah bean.

Friday morning didn’t come soon enough. The days leading up to my planned cesarean seemed to drag on forever. And as any pregnant woman in her last few days can tell you, you start to get a little crazy. And isn’t it funny how no matter how badly you wish the day would come, you always find yourself wishing it didn’t come and go so fast? I do. Even as I sit here and type, my little Lilah is only five days old and I can’t believe I really just had a baby, stayed in a hospital and am already home. I guess some things are meant to be, and Lilah is one of them.

So back to Friday- we got to get up early (4am!). I was surprisingly calm as I walked into the hospital knowing that in a few short hours I would have a baby. It was still dark out, the hospital was calm and quiet and I got all settled in a small L&D room. Wrist bands, IV, hospital gowns, the whole thing. I kept glancing at the clock wishing time would go by quicker. John and I didn’t talk about much, just watched some TV and made the occasional comment on wishing the time would go by faster. I remained quite calm until I saw my doctor walk in around 6:45am. He looked ready to go and it finally hit me that I actually was having a baby! When I finally did get the OK to head to the OR things started happening quickly. John had to wait outside while I got my spinal. I started shaking I was so nervous and remember saying to my doctor that getting an epidural is a lot easier when your in labor! My doctor asked me what kind of music I wanted to listen to and I wasn’t sure what he was talking about- until I realized that he brought his ipod. He ended up turning on some salsa music and joked that the baby might come out moving her hips! John came in and just like that the surgery began. (Okay I have to say- when John told me that they had already started cutting me open I thought to myself “Aren’t we going to have a prayer first??”) The surgery went quick and the next thing I knew I heard my doctor say “Who wants to see a baby?” and John jumped up with the camera. As soon as they held her up over the curtain a huge feeling of relief came over me. I made it! She’s here! Everyone is okay! “She’s screaming!” My doctor said. “As long she doesn’t scream for three months” I said. “Oh no, that would be terrible. I don’t think she will. I have a good feeling about this one.” was his response. So far, he’s been right. Lilah is the kind of baby the phrase “sleep like a baby” comes from. We are only hoping that she stays this way!

Our recovery room was great- big, beautiful and most importantly, private. John got to stay with us every night and all the nurses were so nice. Some friends of ours from church had a baby two days before and we got the room right next to them so John had a buddy to hang out with when Lilah and I got boring. The food was very good and all in all the stay was wonderful! The best part of course was being able to bring home a healthy baby. So far Lilah is a great baby. I’m trying to enjoy her as a newborn, because I know it goes by so quickly, and even though I am excited for her to grow and be able to go do things as a family, I know that her time as a newborn is short and I want to cherish every moment I can. I finally believe all my friends and family members who told me that yes, you will love your second baby as much as your first! Lilah is like a dream come true. A dream John and I have had since before we even knew each other and are beyond grateful we were able to help our Heavenly Father in bringing her to this earth. We love you Lilah, and will be here for you for and with you for every step you take on your journey through life!

The newest addition to the Wallet family!

Name: Lilah Anne Wallet
Info: 6lbs 9oz, 18" Long

We welcome this precious little girl into the world. She was born this morning at 7:34am via c-section. Both baby and mother are doing wonderfully. We are so excited and blessed to have her in our lives. Check back for more pictures.

I finally bought a batch of strawberries that wasn't very good, and was able to make some jam. Devan was thrilled to help me, which I loved. She was my masher and did such a good job! She put on the cupcake apron I made her and mashed away.

I love this photo. I tried different photoshop tutorials, but when I tried the vintage one I knew it was meant to be. I think it has something to do with her hair being in a bun, wearing an apron and mashing berries for jam. It just feels so right. And I love her little arms working so hard. Devan absolutely loves everything about life and wants to try everything and I think this pictures captures that in a small way. I love her.

Not much going on around here...just waiting for the big day and trying to find ways to keep myself busy besides shopping. This will probably be my last post for a while...I'm not very good at jumping back into the swing of things post baby, so we will see how this one goes. Wish me luck!

This morning we went to our wards Easter Egg Hunt /breakfast. It was a lot of fun, and you can't tell by the photos but there were a lot of kids running around. The eggs were all found within minutes. I hope my photos don't look totally dark to everyone. On my Mom's computer every picture I post looks a lot darker than it really is. Maybe it's my computer? Anyway, if you are thinking they look like they are too contrast-y just know I didn't do it on purpose. Hope everyone has a happy Easter!

Remember our awesome family vacation last year? I was pregnant then. And I'm STILL pregnant! With the same baby!!

I've been begging my doctor every week to break my water but he's not convinced it's a good idea. The good news? My asthma is way better. AND I only have 9 more days! Now all I have to do is find things to keep me busy so I don't go insane!

What I love most about these photos is that you can spot John in almost every single one. Devan has no idea how lucky she is to have such a great Dad!

I came across this website this morning and loved this quote.

“Friend, you cannot legislate the poor into freedom by legislating the wealthy out of freedom. And what one person receives without working for, another person must work for without receiving. The government can’t give to anybody anything that the government does not first take from somebody. And when half of the people get the idea they don’t have to work because the other half’s going to take care of them, and when the other half get the idea it does no good to work because somebody’s going to get what I work for. That, dear friend, is about the end of any nation.”

Dr. Adrian Rogers